Last year, I moved to take up a job in another part of the country as I felt the Lord was leading me to do so. Making such a drastic decision was totally out of character, so much so that when the first opportunity came along for me to take up a role at the organisation I work in now, I told God no! The Holy Spirit had confirmed that the time for me to move was coming and lo and behold, another position came up in the same company. The role wasn’t exactly what I wanted, but I was set on obeying God because, after all, his ways are much higher than my own.
In getting ready to move, I felt God was telling me that certain doors would be opened which would surpass my expectations. It was exciting and gave me hope that in doing what he’d asked of me, he’d honour my heart’s desires. And in all honesty, I felt like things would pan out in a particular way. It’s the control-freak in me!
Things didn’t manifest in the way I’d planned however. Earlier this year, my contract came to an end, I wasn’t able to get another and I found myself unemployed. I was feeling super lost and frustrated. God had brought me to this new city where I had literally known no one, I’d been doing a job that I liked, but I was still hoping for something more and I was more ready to see some miracles happen! And then, all of a sudden, it all just – ended. If I’m being 100% honest, I was mad at God. Like, real mad. I felt let down and I questioned whether me moving had really even been part of his plan. Was he trying to play me???
But like God does time and time again, he showed up in a way far beyond what I could have ever expected or imagined for myself. He gave me a new role within the same organisation working on something I was really passionate about. It was surreal. Yes, the journey wasn’t straightforward and there are still unknowns with regards to my future, but God showed me that he cares. He won’t ever leave or forsake me and was in fact listening to me all along!
I just want to remind you that God is always working things out. No, it won’t always look like how may have imagined, but he does have your best interests at heart. Who knows you better than he does! If you feel as though God just isn’t working through your circumstances right now, take hold of the fact that he is. He never stops. And even when the individual pieces of your life seem all muddled and confused, he is able to order them and reveal the bigger picture.
