The first week I got my new iPhone 6 I dropped my phone down the toilet, do you know how hard my chest was beating?
I left it in rice all night long, praying for a miracle.
“Thank you Jesus!!!” I thought when it switched on again. NEVER AGAIN would my phone be in my back pocket and NEVER AGAIN would I be uninsured!
At that moment, I was eager for security. If my phone wasn’t going to turn on again who would I turn to? Not ‘Apple’, as they would sniff out the first sign of water damage and send me on my way and it was too late to get insurance, I was at a serious loss.
This is when I realised how important insurance was. The easiest form of security is insurance. In order for me to have peace of mind I needed an insurance policy.
One day in a conversation with my friend, I felt the words leaving my mouth… “I need security; I need insurance”. At once something in my spirit became unsettled.
I was thinking “hmm…I am quite a secure person, this can’t be”. I started to think about the people in my life and realised that I had wanted insurance from them, and as humans do at some point, they would let me down.
Now, I could blame them but I know better than that. All the while my friend was still going on about what she would be wearing that weekend and I couldn’t keep my mind silent. Let alone control the conviction in my heart. I soon re-gained consciousness and I was back to interacting with her about what I would be wearing and the thought was lost for the minute.
The next morning as I was getting ready for work, I heard God say “pray for security in Me” and that felt so right.
I had now come to the realisation, that this wasn’t anything to do with how secure I thought I was but more to do with being completely reliant in Christ. That became my prayer and I started to look at what God had said in his word and I remembered when Jesus had taken his closest friends to Gethsemane (Matthew 26:36-44) and asked them to simply watch out for him while he prayed. Not once, not even twice but three times he found them sleeping.
Since the beginning of time when we thought someone was going to have our back it doesn’t always work out that way.
I understood more that I should only be dependent on God, as opposed to those around me. This is not the first time in the bible that Jesus was let down by his friends or even by people in general. Jesus prophesied that Peter would deny home 3 times before the morning, that Judas would betray him, and let us not forget about how the people shouted for him to be crucified.
When I took all of this in, I finally realised that my insurance actually needs to be in Jesus and no one else. Too many times people have been let down by others and to be honest I have probably done the same to those around me but God is eternal, he is outside of time so he has no limit.
Nothing can separate us from him. Which makes him a rock and a firm foundation to trust in. (Psalm 18:2)
