I have learnt that life is tough. I have learnt that unexpected things can happen to us that hurt, that feel like the rug has been pulled from under our feet. And I have learnt that God is good, that He has a plan that is far greater than we can see.
There was a time where I experienced being in the valley, totally broken and on my knees, but God taught me four key aspects that He wanted me to learn to be a Woman of God – traits that I believe he wants all of us to have.
I believe we are to be women who are undone, women who are unapologetic, women who are unshakeable and women who are unstuck.
Come back with me to when I was a fresh graduate from Birmingham. I got a job in London and I was experiencing lots of change. I moved away from a lot of my friends and my comfort zone. I had never liked change at the best of times and I was about to experience a lot more than this!
I had been dating someone for three years – we were young when we first started dating but we were a great team, we put God first and encouraged each other and did life well together. We began to have more serious conversations about marriage, and although I thought I was ready at the time, actually he knew he was not and so through a lot of very tough conversations we broke up. Our relationship was something I needed to lay down before God knowing he had a better plan but loosing my best friend was one of the hardest decisions I had made.
On the same day my sister got engaged which was of course incredibly happy news but my emotions were on a rollercoaster journey. Two days after this my Granddad passed away quite suddenly.
So being in a new job, out of my friends comfort zone at university, without my best friend and with a family who were also broken (and also celebrating) I felt like the rug under my feet had just been completely ripped out in the space of a week!
From someone who had always been fiercely independent and planned, I was suddenly faced with not knowing what I was doing from one day to the next, I would burst into tears or hysterically laugh. I felt I didn’t have control at all – I was completely childlike and needed my father.
Through this season I learnt a whole new level of faith, my head knowledge became heart knowledge and being where I am now I know that God prunes you when he is about to take you in to a new season of growth and expansion.
There are some key character traits that God taught me though this season about who he wanted me to be as a Woman of God and who he wants us to be as an army of girls and I will be exploring these traits in my following 4 posts coming each Friday. Look out for part one, ‘Undone’, coming on Friday 17th June.