I thought about this question and thought damn I’m old and there are so many seasons in my life that I would have liked to intervene with the younger me. Like the time when I was in primary school, and had been invited to a swimming party. I was wearing my swimming costume under my clothes and at the last minute I realised I had forgotten my underwear. So just before leaving home my nine year old self thought it would be a great idea to shove my underwear under my swimming costume. Typically, I completely forgot that I had it under my swimming costume and in my haste I jumped in the pool, only to be reminded by a boy in my class screaming “Ewww”. Shortly after the whole party was screaming “ewww” and I had no choice but to join the chorus.
Oh, what I would say to my younger self. Something along the lines of “just put it in your bag!” Or “this is a very bad idea”. It’s always easier to say what you ‘would have done’ when you know the outcome though, isn’t it?
When I look back at all the times that I was clueless, Jeremiah 29:11 comes to my mind. I believe God has a plan for me but I spent so many nights worrying about grades on a test, which today, doesn’t really matter. Don’t get me w
rong, I took every test seriously but the word says “Do not be anxious about anything” Philippians 4:6(NIV). Therefore, my God has got me, why should I worry. I would say to myself don’t worry that he never called you back, God has someone better! Don’t worry that you didn’t get that role, God has something better!
I was unaware that Jesus had been working on my behalf. To this day, there are times when I still focus on what is happening in my life; as opposed to exercising my faith and relying on God. As if he doesn’t get what I am going through. I too, want to walk on water towards Jesus just as Peter did without letting my circumstances bring me down. So if there was one thing that I needed to know it was that God has a plan for me, and I just need to focus on him and all things will work for his glory. Each day I need to remind myself of this (some days more than others!). I know that I wouldn’t be where I am now if it wasn’t for God. You would think that makes it easier to trust God completely. Not quite… but God loves it when we try and I will never give up now.
